After I wrote yesterdays dramatic post, in complete desperation to just get things off of my chest and not explode, I got my children up from their naps.. or rest time if you are Chloe. I had to wake Addi up. When I walked in her room I saw that she had pulled the curtain into her crib, torn up her blinds, and somehow reached the baby monitor and had unplugged it and pulled it into her crib. Houdini. Anyway, I realized that I needed to rearrange her room. The cords for the blinds are where she could never reach them from her crib, before anyone gets their knickers in a knot over her crib near blinds. Anyway, I had to move her bookshelf, which involves removing ALLLLL of the books and putting them back. I sat in her room, placing books on the shelf, sobbing. I finally reached a complete breaking point last night. My husband, seeing that I was struggling, cooked dinner while I cleaned in the room. I ate dinner with my family, and skyped with my parents.
After the girls were put to bed, I logged onto facebook where a friend had posted this article. Learning to Live With the Ache Talk about good timing. Now, I do not know if we are done having children after this baby arrives. That is up to God and we will prayerfully approach the subject. I have always wanted four kids. But, I am not naïve and know that GOD'S plans are often very different from MINE. I already have four kids; two girls, one baby in heaven, and one in utero. These days are LONG, and the years are SO SHORT. These years are a struggle for every parent who has ever been in this stage, and for every parent who will be in this stage. But, one day I will be sitting in my clean, quiet house, and I will long for the constant giggles that come from my LITTLE girls. I will long for the piles of laundry and dishes to wash. I will long for these long, hard days, because they are good. Even though every day brings a new struggle, every day also brings tremendous blessings.
I have contemplated deleting the last post, because I don't like to admit that I ever feel that way. However, I think it is also important for anyone who happens to read it to know that life is not always going to be perfect. Some days you are going to fall apart in quiet sobs. Some days you will feel like you can't take anymore. But, YOU CAN. To every mama: you ARE doing a great job. Start each day in prayer.. seek God's will.. beg him for the strength to get through the hard days. We will miss them, and one day we will have that ache that won't go away. Enjoy every stage.. they are all full of huge blessings!!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
16 weeks pregnant
**Please ignore how messy everything is around me in this picture. My children are obsessed with throwing everything on the floor right now because they, too, are going crazy.
How far along? 16
Baby is the size of: an avacado
Total weight gain: I think close to 8 pounds already.. :/
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: horrible
Worst moment this week: My kids are still sick and I am so sick of doing laundry and spraying Lysol to try to get rid of the germs.. I really am losing my mind completely
Best moment this week: Last night the girls and I curled up on the floor in front of the TV to watch Room on the Broom.. which is "The Cat and the Witch" to Addison. She is obsessed with it.
Miss anything? Going outside.. adult interaction..
Movement: I think I feel some tiny movements occasionally.
Food cravings: Still Oliver T's
Anything making you queasy or sick: The sickness is slowly letting up, but I still feel crummy most nights.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am getting increasingly grouchy the more we get into winter. This season is a nightmare to me, and I always really struggle through it.
Looking forward to: Spring!!!!!!!! And, our ultrasound!
Monday, January 27, 2014
Survival Mode
Since becoming a mother, I have grown into a version of myself that I am not a fan of. I am constantly feeling overwhelmed and.. I don't even know how to describe it. I want to say CLEARLY that I LOVE my children. I love their personalities that are so very different. I love being a mother. Sometimes I have days where I wonder if I was never meant to do this. Was I just crazy, and God was really saying "You are going to stink this thing up, don't even bother"?? I know this is not true, this is my calling from God. I was meant to do this. But, some days are just hard, and that is completely normal.
I always wanted to be a mommmy. As soon as Scott and I got married, baby fever took hold. I used to love playing house (and teacher) as a young girl. I loved to babysit. I worked in massive daycare centers. I taught preschool. I love children. Somewhere after having two children so close together, I feel like I morphed into this not-so-great version of me. I don't know if it is the constant flow of sleepless nights. I have insomnia, and then my kids wake up several times a night when I do finally doze off. I get terrible sleep every night. Everyone gets a little cranky on little sleep. String that together for more than a year, and you start to get madness. I don't like the impatient and annoyed person that I have become.
I get REALLY down in the winter. You know how you have periods in your life that just feel like you are stuck in the valley with no end in sight? That is winter for me. Every single year. It is the longest 3+ months. Every year I really make an effort to prepare myself for the torture of it all, and convince myself that it won't be bad. This winter has been especially difficult, with our 1 1/2 feet of snow in a little over 24 hours, and wind chills reaching WELL below -20 degrees FERENHEIT. It is absurd. Throw in the fact that my kids have been passing a virus back and forth for OVER two weeks, so we can't even go to Sam's club or walk at the mall to get rid of some cabin fever. They are sick of each other, and some days by the end of the night, I am just sick of them. But, night time doesn't end the torture here. See the paragraph above.
I am just worn; weary; exhausted. Every family meal consists of Scott and I screaming at each other. NO, we are NOT fighting, we literally have to scream to hear each other over the constant drum playing with forks and spoons, and the screams of the girls "I want doooooooowwwnnnnnnn!!" I am constantly ducking because Addison thinks it's perfectly okay to throw her food at me. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I don't even remember the last time we went on a date together. Alone. Was it September? I know that in August we ran a 5K together, "The Great Pizza Challenge", and then stood in the YMCA gymnasium and ate some really gross pizza. That may have been the last time.
I feel like I am just doing the bare minimum to get by, and that is NOT AT ALL who I want to be. This pregnancy is difficult. Caring for two toddlers and dealing with already extreme back pain, nausea, and fatigue is rough. I know it will be "worse" when the baby actually arrives. In some ways that is, in a LOT of ways, it will be easier. I love caring for a newborn. The sleepless nights don't seem as bad when you have a squishy little face that actually has a reason to wake up at night. I love the times alone at night with my babies.
I don't even know why I am writing this. Maybe I just really need to get it off my chest. Maybe I am begging for additional prayers that I can make it through this winter without ending up in a padded cell... and prayers that winter doesn't last until July. I was joking that at the rate things are going, it will still be winter when my due date arrives. Please, Lord, NO.
Here is an amusing story to end this miserable rant of a post, and sum up this day:
Chloe colored the back of her door with a marker that she found in her bedroom during naptime.. she also colored herself... and threw giant puzzle pieces and mega blocks everywhere. It has been a splendid day here in the Pullen house. But, it won't stay this way forever and I know that one day I will miss parts of this phase. So, I will try to focus on my 2014 word of the year.. I will try to SAVOR these days.. these long and hard days that feel as though they will never end. I know they will end. I know that I am blessed, and I know that God is good.
I always wanted to be a mommmy. As soon as Scott and I got married, baby fever took hold. I used to love playing house (and teacher) as a young girl. I loved to babysit. I worked in massive daycare centers. I taught preschool. I love children. Somewhere after having two children so close together, I feel like I morphed into this not-so-great version of me. I don't know if it is the constant flow of sleepless nights. I have insomnia, and then my kids wake up several times a night when I do finally doze off. I get terrible sleep every night. Everyone gets a little cranky on little sleep. String that together for more than a year, and you start to get madness. I don't like the impatient and annoyed person that I have become.
I get REALLY down in the winter. You know how you have periods in your life that just feel like you are stuck in the valley with no end in sight? That is winter for me. Every single year. It is the longest 3+ months. Every year I really make an effort to prepare myself for the torture of it all, and convince myself that it won't be bad. This winter has been especially difficult, with our 1 1/2 feet of snow in a little over 24 hours, and wind chills reaching WELL below -20 degrees FERENHEIT. It is absurd. Throw in the fact that my kids have been passing a virus back and forth for OVER two weeks, so we can't even go to Sam's club or walk at the mall to get rid of some cabin fever. They are sick of each other, and some days by the end of the night, I am just sick of them. But, night time doesn't end the torture here. See the paragraph above.
I am just worn; weary; exhausted. Every family meal consists of Scott and I screaming at each other. NO, we are NOT fighting, we literally have to scream to hear each other over the constant drum playing with forks and spoons, and the screams of the girls "I want doooooooowwwnnnnnnn!!" I am constantly ducking because Addison thinks it's perfectly okay to throw her food at me. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I don't even remember the last time we went on a date together. Alone. Was it September? I know that in August we ran a 5K together, "The Great Pizza Challenge", and then stood in the YMCA gymnasium and ate some really gross pizza. That may have been the last time.
I feel like I am just doing the bare minimum to get by, and that is NOT AT ALL who I want to be. This pregnancy is difficult. Caring for two toddlers and dealing with already extreme back pain, nausea, and fatigue is rough. I know it will be "worse" when the baby actually arrives. In some ways that is, in a LOT of ways, it will be easier. I love caring for a newborn. The sleepless nights don't seem as bad when you have a squishy little face that actually has a reason to wake up at night. I love the times alone at night with my babies.
I don't even know why I am writing this. Maybe I just really need to get it off my chest. Maybe I am begging for additional prayers that I can make it through this winter without ending up in a padded cell... and prayers that winter doesn't last until July. I was joking that at the rate things are going, it will still be winter when my due date arrives. Please, Lord, NO.
Here is an amusing story to end this miserable rant of a post, and sum up this day:
Chloe colored the back of her door with a marker that she found in her bedroom during naptime.. she also colored herself... and threw giant puzzle pieces and mega blocks everywhere. It has been a splendid day here in the Pullen house. But, it won't stay this way forever and I know that one day I will miss parts of this phase. So, I will try to focus on my 2014 word of the year.. I will try to SAVOR these days.. these long and hard days that feel as though they will never end. I know they will end. I know that I am blessed, and I know that God is good.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
15 weeks pregnant
How far along? 15
Baby is the size of a: naval orange
Total weight gain: I am not completely sure.
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: crummy as usual..
Worst moment this week: Both girls are sick and I am losing my marbles!
Best moment this week: Getting out to go grocery shopping and finding some AWESOME deals on clothes for the girls!
Miss anything? feeling good and not getting stupid dizzy spells while driving and showering
Movement: I DEFINATELY felt some "popcorn popping" in my tummy last night while laying on the couch.
Food cravings: Oliver T's sandwiches!! They are grilled and delicious!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still fighting with morning sickness..
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am a grouch and tired of it!
Looking forward to: 5 more weeks until the next ultrasound!
Monday, January 20, 2014
'Tis the Season for sniffles... and smoothies
I have kept the girls at home other than to go to church on Sunday and Wednesday. I am sheltering them from the germ-fest of cold and flu season because I HATE IT! I hate being stuck inside with them for days and days with tissues and medicine everywhere! Unfortunately, it caught them. Chloe started with it, and Addison of course followed suit. They both have had fevers now, and my marker board is covered in information about the last dose of medicine and the time they last had a fever/what it was.
How do you deal with cold and flu season? What are some great boredom busters? We have another "polar vortex" bearing down on us, and it is way too cold to go outside or even crack the windows. I am tired of being inside. I am legitimately losing my marbles.. The girls are fighting with each other. Addison is obsessed with Little Einsteins and now knows how to change the movie out if she doesn't like it. If I hear that theme song one more time I might cut my ears off!!!
On the up-side I have re-discovered my love of smoothies. I am really struggling with food aversions to just about everything. I needed something nutritious in my diet, but I can't bring myself to EAT it. For some reason I am ok with drinking it through a straw. I bought a giant bag of baby spinach and blended that into my smoothie today. It definitely changes the color, but you absolutely cannot taste it! I have always been skeptical of it. I love spinach salad, but doubted that the taste could be hidden in a sweet FRUIT smoothie. I am a believer now! Try it out!
How do you deal with cold and flu season? What are some great boredom busters? We have another "polar vortex" bearing down on us, and it is way too cold to go outside or even crack the windows. I am tired of being inside. I am legitimately losing my marbles.. The girls are fighting with each other. Addison is obsessed with Little Einsteins and now knows how to change the movie out if she doesn't like it. If I hear that theme song one more time I might cut my ears off!!!
On the up-side I have re-discovered my love of smoothies. I am really struggling with food aversions to just about everything. I needed something nutritious in my diet, but I can't bring myself to EAT it. For some reason I am ok with drinking it through a straw. I bought a giant bag of baby spinach and blended that into my smoothie today. It definitely changes the color, but you absolutely cannot taste it! I have always been skeptical of it. I love spinach salad, but doubted that the taste could be hidden in a sweet FRUIT smoothie. I am a believer now! Try it out!
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
14 weeks pregnant
How far along? 14 weeks
Total weight gain: not sure
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: terrible
Worst moment this week:.. I can't even name just one.. it's been a rough week.
Best moment this week: Yesterday, Scott took Chloe to the office because her friend was in there. It was nice to have some peace and quiet. Addison is low maintenance. lol We also took the girls outside and played in our 17.2 inches of snow.
Miss anything? energy.. coffee.. the usual..
Movement: probably not. I hope soon though!
Food cravings: Oliver T's! YUM
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still feeling crummy daily.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: moody.. I am sick of it!
Looking forward to: I am still waiting for the phone call from my doctor to find out what is wrong. I am also really looking forward to finding out the gender in 6 weeks! :D
Total weight gain: not sure
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: terrible
Worst moment this week:.. I can't even name just one.. it's been a rough week.
Best moment this week: Yesterday, Scott took Chloe to the office because her friend was in there. It was nice to have some peace and quiet. Addison is low maintenance. lol We also took the girls outside and played in our 17.2 inches of snow.
Miss anything? energy.. coffee.. the usual..
Movement: probably not. I hope soon though!
Food cravings: Oliver T's! YUM
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still feeling crummy daily.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: moody.. I am sick of it!
Looking forward to: I am still waiting for the phone call from my doctor to find out what is wrong. I am also really looking forward to finding out the gender in 6 weeks! :D
Monday, January 13, 2014
Favorite Blogs
Being a stay-at-home mom, I think most of my friends live on the internet. Ok, so they don't LIVE there, but that's the only place I interact with them. I love reading blogs.. all of which are written by moms. I don't read all "mommy blogs", but most all of the blogs I read are written by women who are also mamas. I thought I'd share my favorite blogs to read, so here we go!
1. Little Baby Garvin I have referenced her blog more than once. Jessica is the most creative Mama! She has a beautiful home and I have serious hair-envy!
2. Camp Patton Grace is seriously hilarious. She has three kids (three and under!) and is pregnant with #4. I laugh every time I read her blog, because she is so real. She writes about the not-so-sunny side of parenthood, all while still making it sound pretty sunny.
3. Neon Fresh Roo is also hilarious. She is a mom of 3 girls, but does not at all write a "mommy blog". She loves GIF's and has "This is How I Feel Fridays" that seriously leave me rolling with laughter. My husband always wants to read these posts, too! A couple of her girls have serious food allergies, so if you have kids with allergies, she is great to follow.
4. All Things Katie Marie This is a blog that I have recently started following. She is a teacher with a new baby. She somehow manages to dress adorably every single day, and is super organized. I love her blog so much already!!!
5. Life Style of a Lazy Head Emily went to BBC while I was there. I was so busy taking 21 credit hours and working almost full-time to actually make many friends while there. But, I have seen her heart for Jesus and her passion for encouraging people to live a healthy lifestyle. If you want some inspiration and encouragement to get HEALTHY and stay that way, check out her blog!!
Those are the top five blogs that I LOVE to read. What are your favorites?
1. Little Baby Garvin I have referenced her blog more than once. Jessica is the most creative Mama! She has a beautiful home and I have serious hair-envy!
2. Camp Patton Grace is seriously hilarious. She has three kids (three and under!) and is pregnant with #4. I laugh every time I read her blog, because she is so real. She writes about the not-so-sunny side of parenthood, all while still making it sound pretty sunny.
3. Neon Fresh Roo is also hilarious. She is a mom of 3 girls, but does not at all write a "mommy blog". She loves GIF's and has "This is How I Feel Fridays" that seriously leave me rolling with laughter. My husband always wants to read these posts, too! A couple of her girls have serious food allergies, so if you have kids with allergies, she is great to follow.
4. All Things Katie Marie This is a blog that I have recently started following. She is a teacher with a new baby. She somehow manages to dress adorably every single day, and is super organized. I love her blog so much already!!!
5. Life Style of a Lazy Head Emily went to BBC while I was there. I was so busy taking 21 credit hours and working almost full-time to actually make many friends while there. But, I have seen her heart for Jesus and her passion for encouraging people to live a healthy lifestyle. If you want some inspiration and encouragement to get HEALTHY and stay that way, check out her blog!!
Those are the top five blogs that I LOVE to read. What are your favorites?
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
13 weeks pregnant
How far along? 13 weeks
Total weight gain: 5 pounds at my appointment
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I don't sleep well at all, but that could be because my girls wake up a LOT at night.. still..
Worst moment this week: Sorry if this is TMI (and it probably is) but finding out that there was blood and protein in my urine at my appointment, and that the doctor is sending it off to make sure she isn't missing anything..
Best moment this week: I finally HEARD the baby's heartbeat!!!!!!!!!! It was 140-150 bpm. :) Perfect!
Miss anything? energy
Movement: I still occasionally think I feel something.
Food cravings: I want chocolate pie! Chloe keeps pretending that she is making some, and I really want it now. lol
Anything making you queasy or sick: nothing specific, just not feeling well.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: stressed
Looking forward to: The phone call from my doctor about the test...
Total weight gain: 5 pounds at my appointment
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I don't sleep well at all, but that could be because my girls wake up a LOT at night.. still..
Worst moment this week: Sorry if this is TMI (and it probably is) but finding out that there was blood and protein in my urine at my appointment, and that the doctor is sending it off to make sure she isn't missing anything..
Best moment this week: I finally HEARD the baby's heartbeat!!!!!!!!!! It was 140-150 bpm. :) Perfect!
Miss anything? energy
Movement: I still occasionally think I feel something.
Food cravings: I want chocolate pie! Chloe keeps pretending that she is making some, and I really want it now. lol
Anything making you queasy or sick: nothing specific, just not feeling well.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: stressed
Looking forward to: The phone call from my doctor about the test...
Sunday, January 5, 2014
SAVOR
Last week, I posted about having a "theme" word for 2014. My word for the year is SAVOR. I want to savor every moment with my girls. Their lives are just flying by already. I want to savor these months while it is just the two of them. Then, I want to savor the months when we have THREE!! I want to savor the time I get to spend with my husband (whatever that is..) Most importantly, I want to savor the time I spend with God.
I spend so much time wishing that WINTER WAS OVER. Considering that 6 inches fell on top of the 3 or so that we already had on the ground, and we are still supposed to get 7 or so MORE through the day and night, it is difficult for me to not wish it away. But, I need to savor this season. I always wish it was the next season, or the next month, or even just the next week. I miss out on so much of life because I wish it all away. I am going to savor it all this year.
I haven't really set specific goals. I have things that I HAVE to get done this year.
1. Chloe will be starting Pre-K this year. I am homeschooling my kiddos for as long as I feel that it is what God wants of me. I am not a mom who feels that every single parent should homeschool. I just feel like that is what is best for MY family. I met with someone yesterday who homeschooled 4 girls, and is still homeschooling 3 of them. It was awesome, and I am so excited to get started, and much less overwhelmed feeling. My goal is to plan out the entire school year before Baby #3 arrives so that I won't be panicked feeling come September.
2. Obviously, I have to get a nursery done for baby #3. I know what we are going to do whether we have a boy or a girl. We just have to get the room in the basement finished out before we can start on anything. I am trying to buy small things throughout the year so that the cost isn't so much all at once. We are doing main colors no matter what gender we have, and throwing in specific colors once we know.
3. I want to really organize and simplify things around the house. Small spaces force you to throw junk away, which is a HUGE blessing. The spare room is full of junk that we haven't thrown away, so that is what we really have to work on.
What are your goals for 2014? Are you going to have a "theme" for the year?
I spend so much time wishing that WINTER WAS OVER. Considering that 6 inches fell on top of the 3 or so that we already had on the ground, and we are still supposed to get 7 or so MORE through the day and night, it is difficult for me to not wish it away. But, I need to savor this season. I always wish it was the next season, or the next month, or even just the next week. I miss out on so much of life because I wish it all away. I am going to savor it all this year.
I haven't really set specific goals. I have things that I HAVE to get done this year.
1. Chloe will be starting Pre-K this year. I am homeschooling my kiddos for as long as I feel that it is what God wants of me. I am not a mom who feels that every single parent should homeschool. I just feel like that is what is best for MY family. I met with someone yesterday who homeschooled 4 girls, and is still homeschooling 3 of them. It was awesome, and I am so excited to get started, and much less overwhelmed feeling. My goal is to plan out the entire school year before Baby #3 arrives so that I won't be panicked feeling come September.
2. Obviously, I have to get a nursery done for baby #3. I know what we are going to do whether we have a boy or a girl. We just have to get the room in the basement finished out before we can start on anything. I am trying to buy small things throughout the year so that the cost isn't so much all at once. We are doing main colors no matter what gender we have, and throwing in specific colors once we know.
3. I want to really organize and simplify things around the house. Small spaces force you to throw junk away, which is a HUGE blessing. The spare room is full of junk that we haven't thrown away, so that is what we really have to work on.
What are your goals for 2014? Are you going to have a "theme" for the year?
Thursday, January 2, 2014
12 WEEKS PREGNANT!!!!
I made it!! I remember thinking that I would NEVER reach this point in the pregnancy. :) I know I need to post a belly picture soon. I will, now that my belly is starting to be a little round and not just "Dang, girl, what did you eat?!?!". For now- baby is the size of a plum.
How far along? 12 weeks
Total weight gain: 3-4 pounds
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I feel like all I want to do is sleep. I have CRAZY dreams and I wake up after every one.
Best moment this week: I have started cleaning things again. I don't think my energy is back, just tired of feeling like a slob kabob.
Worst moment this week: Falling asleep on New Year's Eve, and Scott having to wake me up with 2 minutes to spare. We have to get our first kiss of the New Year in. ;)
Miss anything? Well, I made an iced coffee this morning and it was delicious! I miss my energy!!
Movement: I keep thinking that MAYBE I am feeling SOMETHING, but I am probably just crazy.
Food cravings: nothing sticks out this week.
Anything making you queasy or sick: I still feel queasy every evening.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am just really stressed out. I keep thinking of all of the things that have to be done before this baby comes. (such as, you know, getting WALLS for what will be our bedroom..) I was suddenly struck with the realization that Chloe will be starting Pre-K homeschooling this year, and I will have a 2 MONTH OLD when our first official year starts. Someone hold me.
Looking forward to: I have an appointment tomorrow where I SHOULD hopefully get to hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time. I didn't get to hear it at the first ultrasound, but got to see it pumping away. :)
How far along? 12 weeks
Total weight gain: 3-4 pounds
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I feel like all I want to do is sleep. I have CRAZY dreams and I wake up after every one.
Best moment this week: I have started cleaning things again. I don't think my energy is back, just tired of feeling like a slob kabob.
Worst moment this week: Falling asleep on New Year's Eve, and Scott having to wake me up with 2 minutes to spare. We have to get our first kiss of the New Year in. ;)
Miss anything? Well, I made an iced coffee this morning and it was delicious! I miss my energy!!
Movement: I keep thinking that MAYBE I am feeling SOMETHING, but I am probably just crazy.
Food cravings: nothing sticks out this week.
Anything making you queasy or sick: I still feel queasy every evening.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am just really stressed out. I keep thinking of all of the things that have to be done before this baby comes. (such as, you know, getting WALLS for what will be our bedroom..) I was suddenly struck with the realization that Chloe will be starting Pre-K homeschooling this year, and I will have a 2 MONTH OLD when our first official year starts. Someone hold me.
Looking forward to: I have an appointment tomorrow where I SHOULD hopefully get to hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time. I didn't get to hear it at the first ultrasound, but got to see it pumping away. :)
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
11 weeks pregnant
How far along? 11 weeks
Total weight gain: not sure
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: stinks..
Best moment this week: We had an ice storm hit our state, and it knocked out THOUSANDS of people's power. Our power, thankfully, only went out for a short time in the middle of the night.
Worst moment this week: I am losing my mind with one of my children and their crummy sleep habits.. literally about to completely flip out. She is so loud that she keeps waking her sister up a million times. A toddler should not stay awake until 10 or 11, and then wake up early.. all while SKIPPING taking a nap..
Miss anything? coffee.. feeling normal..
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: mozzarella sticks and cookies
Anything making you queasy or sick: I have been feeling crummy no matter what I do this week. It's a bummer..
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: moody.. the lack of sleep and disobedient toddler behavior is really getting to me..
Looking forward to: CHRISTMAS is tomorrow!! We got the girls this huge, colorful kitchen and I am so excited to see their faces. I am making cinnamon rolls from scratch for breakfast, a ham for lunch, and pizza for dinner. It is our tradition every year to eat those things, and stay in Christmas PJ's all day long. Though, I am too big for mine this year so I won't have the festiveness. :(
Total weight gain: not sure
Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: stinks..
Best moment this week: We had an ice storm hit our state, and it knocked out THOUSANDS of people's power. Our power, thankfully, only went out for a short time in the middle of the night.
Worst moment this week: I am losing my mind with one of my children and their crummy sleep habits.. literally about to completely flip out. She is so loud that she keeps waking her sister up a million times. A toddler should not stay awake until 10 or 11, and then wake up early.. all while SKIPPING taking a nap..
Miss anything? coffee.. feeling normal..
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: mozzarella sticks and cookies
Anything making you queasy or sick: I have been feeling crummy no matter what I do this week. It's a bummer..
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: the usual..
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: moody.. the lack of sleep and disobedient toddler behavior is really getting to me..
Looking forward to: CHRISTMAS is tomorrow!! We got the girls this huge, colorful kitchen and I am so excited to see their faces. I am making cinnamon rolls from scratch for breakfast, a ham for lunch, and pizza for dinner. It is our tradition every year to eat those things, and stay in Christmas PJ's all day long. Though, I am too big for mine this year so I won't have the festiveness. :(
10 weeks pregnant
How far along? 10 weeks
Total weight gain: I don't know.. This baby has a serious sweet tooth, and I am scared to find out.
Maternity clothes? still wearing maternity pants, but not shirts.
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: eh.
Best moment this week: I saw a BEAUTIFUL, healthy baby with a strong beating heart!!!!
Worst moment this week: I am in sort of a funk that I can't seem to shake..
Miss anything? coffee
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: cookies, cake.. ice cream.. brownies..
Anything making you queasy or sick: once 3 hits, I feel terrible..
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: same as always!
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: blagh
Looking forward to: January 3rd. My next appointment where I should get to hear the baby's heartbeat with the Doppler! :)
Total weight gain: I don't know.. This baby has a serious sweet tooth, and I am scared to find out.
Maternity clothes? still wearing maternity pants, but not shirts.
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: eh.
Best moment this week: I saw a BEAUTIFUL, healthy baby with a strong beating heart!!!!
Worst moment this week: I am in sort of a funk that I can't seem to shake..
Miss anything? coffee
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: cookies, cake.. ice cream.. brownies..
Anything making you queasy or sick: once 3 hits, I feel terrible..
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: nothing
Symptoms: same as always!
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: blagh
Looking forward to: January 3rd. My next appointment where I should get to hear the baby's heartbeat with the Doppler! :)
9 weeks pregnant
How far along? 9 weeks
Total weight gain: 1 pound
Maternity clothes? I am starting to wear some pants.. they just are more comfortable.
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I slept well last night!
Best moment this week: A stress-free trip to the grocery store with both kiddos is always awesome.
Worst moment this week: Yesterday was an all-around rotten day..
Miss anything? coffee still
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: Mozzarella sticks.. super healthy, I know.
Anything making you queasy or sick: still evenings..
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: I feel Braxton hicks all the time, which is so annoying.
Symptoms: same as always!
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Neither.. lol
Looking forward to: ULTRASOUND DAY!
Total weight gain: 1 pound
Maternity clothes? I am starting to wear some pants.. they just are more comfortable.
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I slept well last night!
Best moment this week: A stress-free trip to the grocery store with both kiddos is always awesome.
Worst moment this week: Yesterday was an all-around rotten day..
Miss anything? coffee still
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: Mozzarella sticks.. super healthy, I know.
Anything making you queasy or sick: still evenings..
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: I feel Braxton hicks all the time, which is so annoying.
Symptoms: same as always!
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Neither.. lol
Looking forward to: ULTRASOUND DAY!
8 weeks pregnant
How far along? 8 weeks
Total weight gain: At my doctor's appointment I had gained a pound.
Maternity clothes? Not yet
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: What is that?
Best moment this week: Telling our families that we are expecting.. Hugging my mom after her knee surgery and getting to help her out a tiny bit.. Meeting my newest nephew.. so many to choose from!
Worst moment this week: Leaving family behind in Illinois.
Miss anything? My love of coffee.. Everyone kept offering me coffee and it made me sad to turn them down.
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: Monical's Pizza and La Gondola from our hometown. Score!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Evenings.. Every evening I feel sick. Zofran has helped me feel much better during the day though!!
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: No
Symptoms: Nausea, things are sore, I am exhausted, and I am showing ALREADY.
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: I had a really good week! Happy for sure!
Looking forward to: The ultrasound that I thought I would get at our first appointment. I cannot wait for Thursday!!
Total weight gain: At my doctor's appointment I had gained a pound.
Maternity clothes? Not yet
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: What is that?
Best moment this week: Telling our families that we are expecting.. Hugging my mom after her knee surgery and getting to help her out a tiny bit.. Meeting my newest nephew.. so many to choose from!
Worst moment this week: Leaving family behind in Illinois.
Miss anything? My love of coffee.. Everyone kept offering me coffee and it made me sad to turn them down.
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: Monical's Pizza and La Gondola from our hometown. Score!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Evenings.. Every evening I feel sick. Zofran has helped me feel much better during the day though!!
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: No
Symptoms: Nausea, things are sore, I am exhausted, and I am showing ALREADY.
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: I had a really good week! Happy for sure!
Looking forward to: The ultrasound that I thought I would get at our first appointment. I cannot wait for Thursday!!
7 weeks pregnant
How far along? 7 weeks
Total weight gain: I am not sure since I haven't weighed myself. Last I knew, I was down a couple of pounds.
Maternity clothes? No, though I wish I could go around without pants because any amount of pressure on my stomach hurts. haha
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I keep waking up several times a night, which is annoying.
Best moment this week: Taking the girls to Sam's club.
Worst moment this week: Chloe shouting through Sam's that "Mommy doesn't feel better"
Miss anything? I still miss feeling like myself. I'm tired of feeling crummy every day.
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: I was craving a bean burrito from Taco Bell. My awesome husband delivered.
Anything making you queasy or sick: My existence still.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: No
Symptoms: Still feeling miserable and tired. I also have other aches that aren't really blog appropriate. ha! But, I am THANKFUL for strong symptoms.
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Only grumpy about feeling crummy, otherwise I'm pretty content this week. ;)
Looking forward to: NEXT MONDAY!! We have our first appointment, and we will be leaving to see family for almost a week. The big announcement will be made to them then also. :)
Total weight gain: I am not sure since I haven't weighed myself. Last I knew, I was down a couple of pounds.
Maternity clothes? No, though I wish I could go around without pants because any amount of pressure on my stomach hurts. haha
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I keep waking up several times a night, which is annoying.
Best moment this week: Taking the girls to Sam's club.
Worst moment this week: Chloe shouting through Sam's that "Mommy doesn't feel better"
Miss anything? I still miss feeling like myself. I'm tired of feeling crummy every day.
Movement: nothing yet
Food cravings: I was craving a bean burrito from Taco Bell. My awesome husband delivered.
Anything making you queasy or sick: My existence still.
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: No
Symptoms: Still feeling miserable and tired. I also have other aches that aren't really blog appropriate. ha! But, I am THANKFUL for strong symptoms.
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Only grumpy about feeling crummy, otherwise I'm pretty content this week. ;)
Looking forward to: NEXT MONDAY!! We have our first appointment, and we will be leaving to see family for almost a week. The big announcement will be made to them then also. :)
6 weeks pregnant
How far along? 6 weeks
Total weight gain: Nothing.
Maternity clothes? Nope. My pants are no longer tight right now, so I am good for now. ;)
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I have been taking unisom at night, so I have been sleeping pretty well.
Best moment this week: Getting out of the house some.
Worst moment this week: over 24 hours of keeping NOTHING down..
Miss anything? feeling like a normal human being
Movement: nothing so far
Food cravings: nothing
Anything making you queasy or sick: existing...
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: No
Symptoms: sick.. I am so sick this week.. and feeling exhausted
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Moody again this week.
Looking forward to: everything being taken care of and getting to go to our first appointment!
I just have to brag on my husband a LOT. I have been horribly sick this week. He has worked all day, then come home and made dinner for him and the girls. He has taken such good care of me, and doing laundry, dishes, etc. so that I don't have to worry about anything but trying to keep food in me. He is the BEST and I am so thankful for him.
Total weight gain: Nothing.
Maternity clothes? Nope. My pants are no longer tight right now, so I am good for now. ;)
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: I have been taking unisom at night, so I have been sleeping pretty well.
Best moment this week: Getting out of the house some.
Worst moment this week: over 24 hours of keeping NOTHING down..
Miss anything? feeling like a normal human being
Movement: nothing so far
Food cravings: nothing
Anything making you queasy or sick: existing...
Gender: Don't know
Labor signs: No
Symptoms: sick.. I am so sick this week.. and feeling exhausted
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Moody again this week.
Looking forward to: everything being taken care of and getting to go to our first appointment!
I just have to brag on my husband a LOT. I have been horribly sick this week. He has worked all day, then come home and made dinner for him and the girls. He has taken such good care of me, and doing laundry, dishes, etc. so that I don't have to worry about anything but trying to keep food in me. He is the BEST and I am so thankful for him.
5 weeks pregnant
I am going to schedule this post for the future, because I am not yet ready to announce that I AM PREGNANT!!! I want to keep track from the start of things though, so here we go. :)
I found out last Sunday that I am pregnant with baby #3 (#4? I don't know how to count since losing a baby..) I am terrified and cannot wait for my first appointment so that I can find out that things are ok. I know that the baby is in God's hands though, and there is no better place. No matter what happens, I am SO BLESSED! Baby's due date is July 14 or 15, I've been told two different dates, so hopefully that can be ironed out soon.
How far along? 5 weeks
Total weight gain: Nothing yet! YES!!
Maternity clothes? None yet, but my pants are already getting tight. yikes!
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: Scott has been amazing at getting up with the girls every 2 minutes, but I still wake up to their cries, so sleep has escaped me now.
Best moment this week: reaching 5 weeks. :)
Worst moment this week: realizing how difficult it will be to HIDE this pregnancy until 12 weeks!
Miss anything? 6 cups of coffee a day. Wah!
Movement: nothing yet.
Food cravings: Carrots and ranch, and Arby's.
Anything making you queasy or sick: If I don't eat at least a snack every couple of hours I feel queasy, but nothing horrible yet.
Gender: I don't know, but really hoping for another girl
Labor signs: No, and I hope it stays that way for a long time.
Symptoms: I run to the bathroom constantly, and have to stick to a feeding schedule. ha!
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Well, we are on day 10 of confinement to the house due to this crummy sickness my girls have, so I am pretty darn moody!
Looking forward to: our first doctor's appointment.
I found out last Sunday that I am pregnant with baby #3 (#4? I don't know how to count since losing a baby..) I am terrified and cannot wait for my first appointment so that I can find out that things are ok. I know that the baby is in God's hands though, and there is no better place. No matter what happens, I am SO BLESSED! Baby's due date is July 14 or 15, I've been told two different dates, so hopefully that can be ironed out soon.
How far along? 5 weeks
Total weight gain: Nothing yet! YES!!
Maternity clothes? None yet, but my pants are already getting tight. yikes!
Stretch marks? No new ones.
Sleep: Scott has been amazing at getting up with the girls every 2 minutes, but I still wake up to their cries, so sleep has escaped me now.
Best moment this week: reaching 5 weeks. :)
Worst moment this week: realizing how difficult it will be to HIDE this pregnancy until 12 weeks!
Miss anything? 6 cups of coffee a day. Wah!
Movement: nothing yet.
Food cravings: Carrots and ranch, and Arby's.
Anything making you queasy or sick: If I don't eat at least a snack every couple of hours I feel queasy, but nothing horrible yet.
Gender: I don't know, but really hoping for another girl
Labor signs: No, and I hope it stays that way for a long time.
Symptoms: I run to the bathroom constantly, and have to stick to a feeding schedule. ha!
Belly button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Well, we are on day 10 of confinement to the house due to this crummy sickness my girls have, so I am pretty darn moody!
Looking forward to: our first doctor's appointment.
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